Friday, September 11, 2009

letting go...

Why didn't my mother warn me?


When I called my mom this morning after dropping Francesca off for her first day of PreK (all the while I was balling my eyes out), I asked her, "Why didn't she ever tell me how hard it was to say goodbye to your child and walk away ~ just leave them?" And having the best mother out there, in my opinion, she just said, "We all have to let go at some point in our lives. You see them growing up and you want to stop the clock but you can't. And nor do you want to. This is just one of the many steps we take as mothers with our children." There was more to our conversation but that's not what this post is about. Francesca did so well today and I am truly very proud of her! As for Annabelle, she just doesn't understand where her big sister is and she keeps asking me over and over again, "Where's Cesca?" and "When she home?" I think we both are missing her...

Here is a photo of the girls and me this morning before heading out for that short drive to school. If I knew than what I know now, I would have hold onto to her a little longer this morning and not worry about getting the laundry started and emptying out the dishwasher before heading out for her first day at school...


I miss you so much Francesca. Words can not describe how much it hurt as I walked out of your classroom today after giving kisses and a big hug, but at the same time I am so excited and happy for you. The smile on your face will never be forgotten and I just know you'll have a wonderful time. I am sitting here counting down the minutes until you and I are united once again. And I can't wait to hear all about your first day. I am coming for you soon baby..

4 comments:

Michelle said...

Letting go is very hard and I think it only gets worse going into high school was worse than going to Kindergarden. It will be good for her though.

sara said...

Oh, sweet friend. I know. All too well. Roots & Wings for our babies!

I heard a Mom crying this past week about her son going to college (IN town). so, if we are looking for it to get easier?? Probably not likely!

but we can be graceful!!!

HUGS,
Sara

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

I can only imagine how hard it is going to be when we send Sarah. We had such a difficult time with Nick.....he cried EVERY SINGLE DAY for 9 months. It totally broke my heart.

I am sure you miss her, but it is all part of growing up.....and it will get easier as time goes by!

Hugs to you,


Lisa

Sue said...

She is off to new beginnings and yes, it is so hard to see that happen! Hope she had a fantastic day and that soon mei mei will enjoy this special time she has with mama all to herself!