Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Thoughts of Sofia...

As I am sitting here tonight...my thoughts are with my "I am 100% sure 'not-born-yet' daughter" Sofia and it is really starting to hit me that we will have another little girl as a part of our family! We have been talking about Sofia for some time now and Francesca has picked up on calling her soon-to-be little sister by her chosen name as well (she even includes Sofia in her prayers at night...actually she calls her Fia). The thoughts that are going through my head are really not thoughts at all, but questions...will I be able to handle two at one time...will Francesca have issues with Sofia once we bring her home...will Sofia have those same walls built up as Francesca did...will I be able to provide the love & support that the both of them will need...what is Sofia going to look like...what is Sofia's personality going to be like...and will I be same mother that I have become being Francesca's mom? So many questions and with the way things are now, rumors have that referral wait times for April 2007's LID can take over 2 years, it may be some time before I get the answers to those questions. I know I will be battling with these questions for a long time to come....

4 comments:

LaLa said...

Sweet that Fia is in her prayers. I know what you mean...just like everyone else I know I have the "can I love her as much as I do Annslee? " question. Of course the answer is yes but it is so surreal right now!

sara said...

I would be willing to bet that she will have beautiful brown eyes:D Sending big hugs your way..I know the wait is tough - it has been the hardest thing I have ever done! & I can say having 2 is a lot easier than 1!! - from my experience!

sara said...

..and by easier, I mean, it is possible to love them & watch them love each other; it is so amazing - there is nothing like watching your kids grow up together & have each other..well, you know, you have a sister!

LINDA said...

my thoughts and prayers are with you. we wait with sara and know the anxiety you go through. you will so happy...