Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Do you believe in signs?

Well...I sure do....I believe in signs.

In fact ~ while I was standing in that extremely long {very long} line at the post office last night (to Express Over Night our PA Child Abuse Clearances) ~ I was thinking about giving up.

(as much as I hate to admit this...yes I was truly thinking about calling our agency and telling them, I could no longer do this.)

I walked into that post office with my head hung low. After a few minutes in line, I realized that I forgot to take a pen with me. Seeing how there were NO pens available for me to use, I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs. I didn't know what to do...leave my spot in line and hike back to my vehicle to get a pen or start asking the other nice people who were also patiently waiting their turn to see if I could borrow a pen from them. Lucky for me, the super nice woman behind me did have a pen in her hand and when I asked if I could use it, she said "sure" right away. So there I was, filling out all the forms needed to over night our clearances and fill out a prepaid one as well for their return.

When I was done, I handed the pen back to the super nice woman and started once again thinking that all these bumps must be signs that we should not be going through with this adoption.

After an hour of standing in line...with a ton of emotions flowing through me (and letting the tears flow a half of dozen times), I finally got my sign.

As I stood there waiting in that line that was still snaking around the isles of personal rented mail boxes, a young Chinese woman walked out through the window/counter service door, holding one of the most adorable Chinese toddler boy that I have ever see ~ who by the way was crying his eyes out. One look at him, reminded me why we are doing this.

Now if you ask me, this sign looked so much like our little man. He had huge rounded almond shaped eyes, fair skin, and that course straight brown hair. He also had this round little face and some very rosy cheeks...just like our Benjamin and when he glanced my way, I knew he was my sign.

My sign to not give up.

My sign to remind me of our Benjamin James who is waiting for us in China.

My sign that this is only a test - a test of endurance, loyalty and most of all ~ love.

My sign that I must not ever think this way again.


Theis Family said...

I am so glad you got a sign, I was about ready to call you on the phone to encourage you to hang on. Consider it an extra long pregnancy and there is no way out but to wait until your due date. Thank you Lord for showing Shelley a sign, I pray you continue to encourage her through many many positive signs she will be with her son soon

Jodee Leader said...

Shelly -- Yes, most definitely, I believe in signs! I am so glad you got a very much needed one last night! You could never leave that sweet face behind! He is absolutely adorable! Hang in there -- he will be soooo worth the long wait!

KiT said...

Definitely a sign you got when you really needed it! So glad we got to talk today.

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

I am so glad that you got your precious sign and didn't give up......

What an incredible story!!!

I know you have been through the mill with this paperchase, but he will be worth every tear shed and every second of aggrevation. You will bring this little boy home!!

Good Golly he is so stinkin CUTE!!!

Happy Holidays....we are definitely going to be getting together after the New Year!!



Football & Fried Rice said...

Oh I have chills! And tears!!!! What are you doing to me?!?!?!

I am so thankful that God sent that screaming toddler to you at just the right moment! I believe that God chooses to reveal Himself to us in the most mysterious ways and oftentimes not at all in the way we think He would/should.

That gorgeous little boy has no one to tuck him in at night. No one to calm his fears, to put bandaids on his scrapes. To wipe his nose. To say I love you. To hug.

You're his everything and his whole life hinges on you coming to get him and make him yours!

Hang in there, mama and keep looking for the SILVER LINING!!!!!!!!

Sue said...

Wow - what a wonderful story! God is faithful! So glad you got your sign when you needed it most.
Enjoy these next few days with your family and friends and hang in there!